Metanoia

So I'm sorry I haven't been here for a while, but so much has been going on! My heart is so completely filled with joy thinking about what a beautiful summer this has been. I've been making so many great memories with the best people I've ever known, and all I can think about is how crazy it is that destiny has brought me to these people. It's insane to consider my life and how it's all lead up to this moment, and how this moment determines the next. I never thought I'd be so thankful for my existence and all of my experiences, but I am.

This all started about two weeks ago when my brother got married. Even now I'm overcome thinking about it. I think I can honestly say that it changed everything I believe about love. I can barely even describe it, but I saw it in my brother's face when he saw his bride coming down the aisle. That pure, raw expression changed me. I see so much love everywhere I look now; it's almost like his face flipped a switch. My parents divorce affected me more than I was ever willing to acknowledge growing up, and I haven't really trusted myself when it comes to love. Now, however, I feel like I know what it is.

I see it everywhere now and can't believe it's beauty. I understand now that if I trust myself as well as the universe that it will come with time, and I'm totally okay with that. The Supremes were right, I guess haha.



In other news, I haven't finished my manifesto, but I've been painting! I'm currently working on two big ones to debut at my show with Jess at the Dodger in September. I've decided to title it Metanoia, which is the journey of changing one's mind, heart, self, or way of life. Here are some little baby snippets!